Blogs of Innocence and Experience

As the father of a 4-year-old, I do everything in my power to keep my daughter’s mind protected, soul uncorrupted and life uncomplicated. I want her to have a simple, romantic view of the world, where animals talk, people sing and stories have happy endings.

For now.

As she grows up, a crucial part of her development will be learning that the world is not the candy-colored playgrounds depicted in her My Little Pony Netflix queue. Like William Blake’s famous poems (from which this blog post takes its name), she’ll cross the event horizon of adolescence and adulthood into a world where the innocence of lambs gives way to the fearful symmetry of a tiger, and often, joy to sorrow.

Those lessons are easy –- they’ll naturally occur as she experiences the world in all its gnarled imperfection. She’ll learn that her parents aren’t perfect, politicians lie, and salespeople don’t always have her best interests at heart.

The tricky part is not letting experience transform that innocence into cynicism. It’s a fine balance. Naivety –- viewing the world through a child’s eyes -- is a dangerous way to live as an adult. But a life of world-weary bitterness is cold and lonely.

I can’t say I’ve found equilibrium yet. Despite my sarcasm and journalism-induced skepticism of anything stated as fact, I tend to romanticize the world, idealizing bigger-than-life people, government and institutions. When reality inevitably triumphs, I’m left disheartened and utterly disenchanted. As Byrd says in Len Deighton’s An Expensive Place to Die, cynics are just disappointed romantics. Or as Rick Bayan’s The Cynic’s Dictionary puts it, a cynic is “an idealist whose rose-colored glasses have been removed, snapped in two and stomped into the ground, immediately improving his vision.”

How do we balance the two extremes? Guarding our heart without  building a wall around it? Accepting that life will break your heart, but refusing to let it break your soul?

Maybe Blake answered it best in Auguries of Innocence:

He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mock'd in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.

He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.

Elena discovers that the Internet has information, too

She already knows she can find funny videos and music, but surprised me by asking to check whether the author of The Runaway Bunny also wrote The Runaway Mummy (no).

Then she wanted to see pictures of termites.

 

Let's just hope she doesn't figure out that the Internet can be used to buy things, too.

Motoactv price slashed to $150

One of my best gadget purchases ever, the all-in-one fitness/music/life-tracking Motoactv GPS sports watch, just got a 40% discount. Unfortunately, I can't tell whether this is a good thing.

If the stock-clearing discount is a prelude to a new version of the product, I'm happy to hear that Motorola is sticking with the product, which despite some annoying flaws, is ahead of its time in the fitness tracker category. This device played a big role is keeping me motivated and disciplined in my half-marathon earlier this year. The Google executive now in charge of Motorola is a triathlete, so there's hope that he's pushing for a watertight, tougher version of the Motoactv.

But my fear -- and gut feeling -- is that the discount actually means Motorola is killing off the device. That would be a shame, but it wouldn't be the first time a well-conceived tech product has failed in the marketplace. And cleaning out the product catalog is common after an acquisition.

Still, discontinuing the device so soon after adding golfing features and advertising it so heavily would seem odd. And Google is pushing Android anywhere it can. I mean, come on -- This device is a whole lot more practical than Google Glasses.

But if Arrested Develoment can get cancelled, I guess anything is possible.

If the Motoactv is indeed being killed off, I hope the company does one last favor and give users a way to keep using the device, either maintaining the portal or enabling the device to transfer run data to third-party sites.

Taking the plunge

Gulp. I've begun training for my first full marathon, which if all goes well, will take place in early November.

I won't lie -- 26.2 miles sounds daunting. In January, I had decided to tackle a marathon by the end of the year, but chickened out after the San Diego Half Marathon last spring. When I had finished that one, I couldn't imagine myself being just halfway through.

And yet, here I am, ready to go for it. I've done enough training and reading that I'm convinced -- not delusional, I hope -- that it's doable. Oprah did it. Drew Carey is a runner. And while I can't stand their politics, even George W. Bush and Sarah Palin have respectable marathon times.

I'm trying to time things so that the bulk of my training occurs in the September-October timeframe, when my wife and daughter are in Brazil. I've tentatively selected the Santa Barbara International Marathon but am waiting for my wife to confirm her plans before I settle on mine. As part of my training leading to the full marathon, I will definitely be running the Zombie Runner Half Marathon on Labor Day. (Despite the name, no Zombies are actually running. The name comes from the store sponsoring it.

Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I want to feel justified calling myself a runner. Maybe I just want the 26.2 sticker on my car.

It does get better

I couldn't disagree more with the title of this recent blog post from BuzzFeed writer Matt Buchanan, which argues that updates don't make most devices better.

You might buy a new phone that's missing something, thinking, "It will get better." No, it won't. If I were to tell you one thing about buying technology, it is this: Buy something because you like what it is right now, not because you think it's going to get better, or that one day it'll be what you really wanted it to be. It's kind of like marrying somebody and thinking you'll change them and they'll get better. They might. But they probably won't. Over time, you'll just hate them even more. And yourself, at least a little.

The writer makes several good points about making sure you're happy with a device you have, not the one you're hoping to have with the next update. And I completely agree with him about Android phones. Unless something changes dramatically in the next few months with regards to carrier OS updates, I won't ever buy another non-Nexus Android phone again.

But Buchanan oversells his case. Almost every device I have is better than it was when I first bought it. My MotoACTV running tracker has a dramatically better battery life, more features and better reliability thanks to the magic of software updates. My Nook has sharper text and changes pages more quickly than it did last year. And let's not forget how much better the iPhone was a year after its launch, when third-party apps had begun to truly transform the device from something cool to something transformative.

Buchanan concedes as much about the Xbox, but argues that it's an isolated case. He's wrong. Devices usually get better with updates. Let's hope tech journalists do, too.

Dear Best Buy: Your biggest problem isn't "show-rooming"

If I read one more business news article lamenting the effect of e-commerce on big-box retailers such as Best Buy, I swear I'm going to hunt down the reporter and make that person come shopping with me.

Yes, Amazon avoids many sales taxes. Yes, Amazon doesn't have to stock items in fancy buildings and pay people to wear blue shirts (from what I've seen, that's pretty much all they're paid to do). And yes, some people ogle and manhandle gadgets at the store and only to purchase them online.

But just as many people log onto to Amazon in the store to read the reviews, then head for the cashier with the item under their arm. I do.

Physical retailers have a couple of huge advantages over online retailers: instant gratification and hand-holding from salespeople, reassuring shoppers that any given purchase is a good one. If someone has already made the effort to drive down to a store and expressed a tangible interest in a given doodad, clinching the deal shouldn't be difficult.

And yet, for Best Buy it is. I've lost count of how many times I've gone to Best Buy hoping to snag an expensive toy only to return empty-hand because the store was out of stock or the salesperson couldn't find (or unwilling to look) for the item. And even when the store happens to have the item, the purchase process is painful -- "No, I don't want the extended warranty. No, I don't want any accessories. No, I don't want to justify my budgeting priorities to a stranger."

That anyone shops there at all is a testament to the power of I-want-it-now.

Best Buy's biggest problem isn't Amazon. Best Buy's biggest problem is Best Buy.

A modest proposal for gadget reviews

If I ran a technology product-review blog, I'd have a regular feature called "The Six-Month Checkup." It would basically be an addendum to every previous initial gadget review, detailing how well a product is holding up over time. Such a feature would let reviewers get better acquainted with a product -- its annoyances, reliability issues and even little surprise features that don't always make it into the press materials.

As a onetime/longtime technology journalist, I know the pressures of product reviews: your readers and editors want them immediately, and six-month-old gadgets aren't exactly eyeball magnets. But I think there's an audience that -- whether for reasons of frugality or conservation -- is looking to make careful long-lasting purchases. And for this audience, the Six-Month Checkup is just what the doctor ordered.

Happy Fathers Day (to me!)

The fringe benefits of fatherhood: I woke up to a delicious crepe breakfast, cookies and an iFitness hydration belt I've been eyeing. I am loved.

Starting over

After months of non-activity, I think I'm ready to start blogging again. I do have a few housekeeping things to take care of, including whether to switch to WordPress and whether to continue using Flickr to host my photos. Yes, I know -- both seem passé. I need to figure out whether the benefits of switching outweigh the hassle. Stay tuned.

For my first post, I present an original song written, arranged and performed by my daughter (surprisingly melancholy for a 4-year-old). Now, if only I could decide on a second post.

The long and winding road

I'm a beginning runner, and every run seems long to me. But when I run a distance and double back, the return trip always seems shorter than the first half of the run. You'd think it would be the reverse -- by the second half of the run, I'm tired and have already seen the environment I just passed. Maybe the newness of the first half slows time, like the first day at a new school or job. Maybe just knowing, viscerally, how far you have to go makes the second half faster. I don't know.

Life seems the opposite of a run, though. Getting to a certain point can seem effortless, almost haphazard. The hard part -- maybe the impossible part -- is getting back to where you came from.

He Who Hesitates is Sometimes Better Off

I have three Android devices. I’m happy with two of them.

After getting a Samsung Captivate last fall, following up with a Motorola Xoom two months ago, I bought a Barnes & Noble Nook last week.

The Xoom was supposed to be my e-reader. While the iPad had electronic versions of all the publications I’m interested in as well as app versions of both the Nook and Amazon Kindle, I was bothered by the fuzzy-looking text. The Xoom offered sharper text and both of the e-reading apps. I hoped my publications were coming, heartened by the fact that a version of Wall Street Journal was already available for the 7-inch Galaxy Tab and Conde Nast’s announcement last winter that the New Yorker and Wired were on their way to Android tablets by this spring. As of today, none of those publications is available on 10-inch Androids.

So after years of dismissing e-ink readers as tablet wannabes, I finally bought one. I went with the Nook over the Kindle because of its smaller screen, longer batter life and more advanced screen. I’ve been pleasantly surprised. E-ink really is much easier on the eyes. And having a single-purpose device allows me to truly read the text without the distraction of knowing that e-mail, Web sites and games are a click away.

If I were to do it all over again, I would have bought the Nook now and waited for the next generation of tablets, both Android and iOS. Lesson learned.

A gift from my daughter

Elena was ecstatic to give me this when I got home from work today. Andrea says Elena tried to jump off of a picnic table at the park to grab this for me from the tree branch it was attached to.

At her age, that's more work (and risk) than I've put into any of her presents.

My first 5K!

In the midst of a winter funk this new year, I resolved to exercise at least 30 minutes, three times a week and lose weight. I settled on running – no fancy equipment, no time-consuming classes, no expensive gym membership. And with the treadmill, I can do it rain or shine.

To motivate myself, I trained toward the goal of doing a 5K. And today was my first official race. Here are my results: http://runkeeper.com/user/kenspencerbrown/activity/34558584. Not a great pace, but it was steady. And in my defense, my knee hurts like crazy.

More importantly, I completed a goal (a few, actually). I’m still a newbie, no doubt. But I haven’t been this thin since college and never this fit in my life.

I can’t wait to start training for a 10K.

Forgive the cliche...

But I'm citing T.S. Eliot's The Waste Land this month:

"APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding 
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing 
Memory and desire, stirring 
Dull roots with spring rain."

I won't claim to have mastered this classic, but man, these opening lines sure seem to fit this year.

The Tweet Escape

While I've posted "deep thoughts" and political diatribes on Facebook before, I've notice myself using the social network less and less for serious discussion and more for personal, noncontroversial content. Most of my political content now goes on Twitter, despite the microblogging service's 140-character limit on messages. And while I find political posts on Facebook annoying, I enjoy reading them on Twitter -- even the crazy ones.

Am I the only the only one doing this -- and finding it counterintuitive? Shouldn't the silly stuff be short & sweet and the complex policy arguments have lots of room to expand?

Another technology dilemma: tablet edition

About a year ago, I wrote about my difficulties in choosing a new cell phone. I ended up with the Android-powered Samsung Captivate, and with the possible exceptions of no physical keyboard and an excruciatingly long upgrade cycle to Froyo, I couldn't be happier with it.

Now I want to buy a tablet. The iPad 2 is the default choice. It has a commanding lead in the apps I care about (think online newspapers and magazines), a nice size and shape, superior battery life, and a price that's inexplicably better than similarly powered tablets.

So why not just buy one? First, rumors of a sharper-resolution model this summer makes me want to wait a few months -- the main appeal of a lightweight tablet for me is e-reading. At the same time, I want to see what Android alternatives might be available by then. One possibility is the Nook Color, which is supposed to be getting a big upgrade this month. While I don't know whether I can live with the measly 7-inch screen, the idea of a low-cost Android tablet appeals to me. I do think Android is going to dominate the mobile market in the long run, and dealing with just one interface would be easier. (I already find myself looking for Android buttons on my wife's iPad.)

I wish someone could refute the iPad 3 rumor and just let me buy something already.

The more things change...

My rebuttal to anyone who says newspapers will survive because people need something to read on the toilet.

My wife’s awesome Page One illustration

Well-known graphics-design blogger Charles Apple mentions Andrea’s homage to the St. Pepper’s album cover for a San Jose Mercury News story about friendship. She also did an interactive online version (it’s near the bottom of the Web page.) This marks the second time he’s praised her work.

I’m happy to say that she included a Star Wars reference (and even a Star Trek one).

She’s been doing some great work. A page-design class I recently took with Poynter featured one of her illustrations as an example of good design. I was proud to point out to my classmates that I was married to the graphics artist –- it was sort of like being at a concert and being able to tell everyone that I’m dating the lead singer.

In an uncanny coincidence, I can also report that she’s not bad at “The Beatles: Rock Band.”

The curse of being Ken Brown

“Kenneth” is the 17th most common first name in the English language. “Brown” is the 5th most common last name. Though my family calls me “Spencer” my legal name is the oh-so-common “Ken Brown.” That’s Ken like the doll, Brown like the color.

I was one of three Ken Browns in a community Karate class. A Ken Brown works at a rival newspaper (he was even promoted to an editor position not too long after I was!). And scores of other Ken Browns roam cyberspace.

Every few days, I get e-mail meant for one of them. I used to tell senders of their mistake, but it got to be too much work. But I can’t help reading the messages, and so I’ve learned a lot about these sobriquetical doppelgangers.

Now, a few of these may tie into the same Ken:

• One is a teacher who accepts class assignments via e-mail (I still do inform the students of their mistake in these cases, but judging from the quality of their work, I doubt my good deed will help their grade much.) He also appears to be looking for a school administrator job.
• One wants to lose weight (he joined Weight Watchers). Or maybe he’s just trying to pick up people struggling with their weight.
• One is an architect or works at an architectural firm.
• One is collecting proposals for a home project. This may be the architect. If I see any good bids for a new roof, I may reply.
• One is married to a woman named Ann, and GoldPointsPlus.com is very excited to welcome them as members.
• One has a thing for Jim Carey tattoos.
• One goes by Alicia. I still haven’t figured out the backstory on that one.

That’s just from the legitimate e-mail. Who knows how much of my spam was actually meant for another Ken, or for that matter, Alicia.

What if any of these people are getting my e-mail?

A PC guy reviews the iPad

Though I’m a longtime Tablet PC user who sees the iPad as more of luxury device than a necessity, I bought one for my Mac-loving wife and got some quality time with the device. Here are my first impressions:

• It’s very slick, with a smooth, snappy interface and nice industrial design.
• Browsing the Web is enjoyable on the iPad, thanks to a big screen, awesome battery life and instant-on startup.
• Typing on the iPad’s on-screen keyboard isn’t as fast as using a real keyboard, but faster than I expected.
• The iPad is lighter than any tablet device I’ve owned (including this Vadem Clio – talk about an early adopter!), but even a 1-pound device gets heavy fast when you’re holding it up in your hand.
• Not having Flash is not as big of a deal as I thought it would be. Many sites are already working around it, and even YouTube videos embedded on other Web sites know when to switch to a non-Flash version.
• As noted by famed Web interface guru Jakob Nielsen, app interfaces are wildly inconsistent. A lot of experimentation is taking place, which is good and bad – it will lead to interface innovation but a lot of user confusion until designers begin to coalesce around some common interface conventions. Just like the early days of the Web. 
• The iPad doesn’t work on Macs running OS 10.4 or earlier. So my wife’s PowerPC-based computer is too old, even though the iPad works fine with older Windows-based PCs. Does Apple hate its most loyal customers, or do its customers meekly take whatever Steve Jobs gives?
• iTunes is a bloated POS. Truly.